Merry christmas & a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I no longer fancy blogging, as it's really such a hassle!
Still, I will not shut down this space as it contains too much memories.
And who knows?!
I may just fall in love with blogging once again, someday.
You know, Geminis. HAHA.

Anyway.. HAPPY BOXING DAY!
Alright. Not like we celebrate today or something.
So.. BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Hope every single one of you had fun!

Yaya and I had ours at Novotel, together with his gang of friends.
I think Mad & Wang should have ALL the credits to make the party a successful one.
Thanks guys! =)

And what's after Christmas?!
NEW YEAR!!!!
I'm kinda excited, even though it's a hotel stay (again). HAHA.
But I think we'll be having alot alot of fun.

So.. HAVE FUN PEOPLE!

All because of you, I'm sweetly immersed in l.o.v.e-

Nowadays, I prefer to tweet than blog. Unless necessary, I wouldn't go such great lengths to post something.
And so, of course I considered tweeting this post, but apparently everything wouldn't fit into my 160 words limit of Twitter huh.

Alrighty.
All I wanna say is..
I like how stable and sweet our relationship has been, despite us having been together for the good old 5 years. But of course, these are not for sure and I am not taking such happiness as granted. I thank God and am counting my blessings.

I like.. How sensitive you are towards me.
Just an unintended action, casual remark and you are always able to define the underlying meaning(s) that sometimes even I don't realise. I really wonder how you do it at times. This especially tingles me when I'm feeling down or unhappy.
Example: I was looking at this something that I really like. But due to price considerations, it's a no-no to get it home of course. At such moments, you NEVER seem to fail to ask if I want it. If yes, you'll tell me that you can pay.
Amazingly, such scenario happened N times.

And so..

I like.. How can a no blood relations person know me so freaking well. From what I like to eat, like to play, like to dress and so on. I believe that besides having been together for a memorable 5 years, there must be something else in it.

I like.. How attentive and caring you are towards me. At times you may not even realise, or may just deem it as a casual act. But I've been noticing it all. And yes, please trust that I've been real grateful for these all.
Examples:
*Knowing that daddy peels my prawns for me since young, you decided to take over his role and do it for me, just cause you know I love peeled prawns.
*Knowing that even though I like to eat fish, I hardly really consume it. And that's maybe because i've choked on a fish bone when young. In fact I think you're the one who realised this. So, to convince me into eating fish, you'll pick the fish meat out and ensure me time and again that it's bone free. Haha.

I like.. How you talk to me bout out future, because I've never thought that you'd have considered so far. From where we stay till how much we need and that I've to start working to pay of my debts. I was really, taken aback.

I like.. How you say your family & I are your first priority in life. But I can tell that I'm slowly having a higher percentage of attention compared to your house's.

I like.. How you support me in everything i do. You will always say "just try lo" whenever I'm going to venture out something.

I like.. How you trust me and allow me freedom in all aspects. Be it if it's work or school, you've never interfered or doubted me. Knowing that I've got a hell load of male friends, you've never been jealous. Best, you wouldn't mind if I go out with 1 or 10 guys, all by myself.

Oh my. I've never really realised that there's so many things I like about you. But trust me. I know and will continue to count my blessings. Meanwhile, BB, please bully me lesser and treat me even nicer k? Haha.

<3

Advantages of being a DJ!

I've never really thought of this before till a few moments earlier.
Hahaha!

1. People are very impressed with this job of yours, and look at you in a different way. It allows you to be proud. But, not for me though. I prefer to be low profile. Haha.

2. You get sponsors for quite a number of stuffs. To name a few: Grooming services like hair, nails.

3. You get freebies now and then!
Free movies!!! Free makeup!
Oh. Free concerts for the lucky Mediacorp DJs!

4. Do what you like in between songs. I've been watching Xiaxue's Guide to Life got the past 2 hours. Haha!

5. Meet celebrities! Those lucky Mediacorp DJs get to meet almost all celebrities who step their feet on Singapore. I haven't met any to date.

6. Listen to the latest songs while working and not get sacked, cos it's your job! Haha!

7. Experience life as a celebrity when there's events going on.

8. Read magazines or online gossip articles as much as you want while working whole day long. Cos it your responsibility to digest and share them!

Seems not bad hor this job?
Haha.
I think so too...

Disappointment

I would like to share that:
Officially, I will not be converting my part-time status to full-time with 88.3Jia.
So, I'm actually very lost.
I don't exactly know what can I do in future and if I will like what I will be doing.
This sucks.

Worse, I know my family is very disappointed.
Especially DADDY, my number 1 listener.
I expected that this will happen, yet I prayed for a miracle still.
From Steph not able to be a pilot, till me not able to be a full-time DJ.
My, can you imagine his disappointment?
But of course, many others like Yaya and my friends are disappointed as well.

The worst scenario happened.

Still, I know that He has other better plans for me.
I just need to believe in Him and anticipate.

Just an add on.

I forgot to mention bout these. Those beautiful boxes, wrappers, packagings are specially selected by Mr Ho at many different places.
We were working at Orchard on one of the Saturdays. After that, we took a train to Dhoby Gaut and I circle lined back home. He was supposed to head home too. But I called him after 1.5 hours and he didn't pick up. As usual, I called his sis and she said he went Daiso.
He picked up after several tries and giving excuses like he went out to PS to pee and for dinner, cos he's very hungry.
According to him, I made a nasty comment like.. "Wa. You very fat leh. Keep eating."
In fact, he was at Daiso busy shopping for my stuffs.
I know I know. I'm guilty already.
SORRY BB! Please forget bout this and forgive me k? Haha.

My VERY Happy 5th Anniversary!

I haven't been feeling like blogging for a very long time already.

But thanks to yaya, I have to.

And on account of his effort and sweetness, try to finish reading ya?

As many of you know, our anniversary lies on 01 October.

This year, I thought it's been made known long ago that my only present would be the more- than- enough- expensive Burberry tote. If you haven't heard of the story, let me tell you.

There was this day when I was working with yaya at Central. And we saw this girl with a Burberry tote. He started asking me if I really liked the bag and all. So, I asked if he's buying it for me.

And yes, there goes my surprise.

He has yet to collect the bag from his friend btw.

And so, we have been thinking how to celebrate this special day.
Cos yaya thinks that 5 years have been kinda a milestone already.
So, we ought to have some kind of special celebration.
Thought of several, but non works.

End up, as usual we went to Malaysia yesterday.
However, yaya's been teeling me that he wants to bring me out to this special other place after that. But because it's very late already, he disclosed that it's Marina Barrage which he plans to bring me to.
Finally, we didn't go anywhere and decided that his room is it.

He asked me to sit down, took out his iPAD and started his "Q&A" session.
First Q: "When is our anniversary date?"
(Who doesn't know? And so, I was awarded my first prize.)
Second Q: "How many times have we celebrated our anniversary?"
(Well, you think he knows? So, he just gave the prize. HAHA.)

It turned out to be 2 pieces of Shiseido mud masks.

Next Q: "Name 3 nicknames you have for me."

(Correct! And I was awarded a big box.)

Q: "3 things you like about me."

(Another big box awarded!)

Last Q: "List 3 occassions when I really made you touched."

(One big box, again!)

Opened up and...

TADAH!
Seaweeds! Cos I've been loving this "Triple-M" chilli seaweed and he specially bought many other different flavours for me to munch on.

But, we didn't know that they taste totally different from what we used to have!

HAHA.

Next on, he said it was end of our "Q&A" session.

Proceeding to part 2- playing games.
First game: 乌龟乌龟跳

Second game: 海带拳

Last game: Five Ten

And for every round I win, I would be awarded a small pack stored in this box below.

Initially, he gave me pack by pack.
And cos he feels that it would take us very long before I receive everything, he gave me 3 packs at each hand I win. HAHA.

And guess what's inside this little packs?

ACCESSORIES!

LOTS OF ACCESSORIES which he specially ordered online weeksssss ago!

This was the first one I open and it's a ring which says "LOVE".

I wanted to buy this online and he actually got it!

The only problem is...

It's superrrrr small!

Small enough to fit only my last finger.. :((

Another ring with heart shapes and a dangling star pendant.

Yaya says the theme of his surprise is LOVE & HEARTS.

HAHA.
And yes, this ring fits only my small finger.

Below is a ring that's very me.

Bling!

And this one fits any finger as it's stretchable.

HAHA.

I kinda like this one below as well.

Best, I think I can wear it on other fingers!

A VERYYY golden cheena crown.
HAHAHA~

Another heart one.

I kinda like this one below quite a lot.
Best, it only fits my last finger, again.
Guess, my last fingers are gonna be very busy wearning these rings.

Next, this pair, I like, alot!

Cos I bought the silver pair too!

YAY! Now I have two of the same kind.

MUAHAHA.

Yaya said, "WHA LAO!" when I told him I've got this. HAHA.

He said he thinks this pair is very nice.

I think so too.

Photo does no justice la.

Been wanting to get this too!
Yaya says there's suppose to be a pair of "NO", but for some unknown reasons, it's missing!

Ok, something that I won't get, but kinda me.
Strawberry ice cream!

Yaya knows that I've been liking the gingerbread man soft toy from "Universal Studios".
So......

He says he got me this cos I like strawberries.
But BB, this is cherry! HAHA.
-_-"

After taking up quite alot of time to unwrap the above accessories, here comes another surprise that I SUPERRRRRR LOVE!
TOTALLY~!

It came in the form of very thick envelope.


And I saw the words..
"BIRTHDAY"
Hmm? Whose birthday?
And this silly boy says it's a belated birthday card, cos "all I had" was ths Thailand shopping trip.
Seriously, that's sooooo enough my dear.

But this isn't the end..
Look at how special this card is?!
I superrrrrrrrrrr love!
BB says he bought this for several reasons.
1. Cos I told him I don't want flowers and he feels that this looks like a bouquet of flowers when burst open.
2. It's superrr special (cos I love SUPERRRR BIG CARDS)
3. It's bear and there's lots of glitter which I love.
Totally, I love it!


Next, he told me to no harbour too much hopes.
They're all wrapped up too.
HAHA.
And look, it's his breakfast bar which I've been eyeing on for a long time!
He's giving it to me cos he wants me to have them before going to gym in the morning. =)

YUPI sweets!
He says I confirm like them, cos I was the one who bought these, but left it in his bag and cleanly forgotten bout it.
Wrapped up too. Can you believe it?

Another highlight of the day!
This ultimate pretty box which he "DIY- built" himself!
Guess what's in it?

He even bought these pretty stuff to put into the box!

First item from the box:
"Anti Lady Killer"

Reason behind buying this is cos sometimes he doesn't accompany me to my doorsteps (when it's late) and he want me to be free from some kuku people (in his views, bangalaS).

So, this is supposed to be for my self protection.

I'm kinda shocked by his thoughtfulness.

Next, shaver.

Very -_-" I know.

He bought this cos it says I won't get hurt while shaving or something.

He doesn't want me to get hurt, yes.

HAHA.

Next up, a device to remove dead skin on feet.

He knows I love to mani / pedi, but for pedi I needa go to the professionals cos of my dead skin.

So, he specially got me this!

Something which I've been eyeing on too..

Fringe pad!

Simple.

He doesn't like my look with hairband.

He thinks I'll look nicer with this, at home.

I was unwrapping the wrapper for this and I read the words..

"Monkey Nail Dryer"

And I went "OH OH!".

Cos, I bought this yearssssss back!

HAHAHA.

But I told him, now I can dry 2 hands with 2 monkeys!

The little story behind this dryer is that he ordered this weeks back, but it took like very very very long to come! So, he was very worried that this would be left out of the many surprises.

He had to call the seller to chase after it and when it was raining when the postman delivered this. Hence, the crumpled box.

Next, he introduced this present as one of the most expensive and the highlight one.

I was like... "WTH is this?!"

I've never seen or wanted this.

Then he told me to off the lights.

It's a light stick!!

He must have known I loved light sticks / glow sticks!

And I'll get real excited seeing this!

And I did!

I tell you! It can display ANYTHING!

So, I'll use this to support yihao!!!

HAHAHA.

Next up, he handed me these two stuff.

Every single little thing's wrapped up btw!

And...

I said..

"OH BB! I like this alot alot alot! So, I also bought this pair online!"

WAHAHAHA!

Then, here came this box.

A heart shaped ring box.

Guess what's inside?!

This apple ring which will send chills down the spine of Shonia, Glenn & I!

HAHAHAHA!

Next up, yaya says this is the last present. No more.

Then he took out this really nice box!

I superrrrrrrrr love!

It's just so me!

Pink, purple, heart, love, glitters!!

And it shows the colourful streamers which I really love as well and a card!

Guess what's in it?!

It's the "self-cam" mirror for my polariod!

The card says..

"I know you've been eyeing on this for very long but don't bear to spend the money to buy it. So, here it is. I hope you like it."

Yes, I superrrrr do!

And this small thing is really expensive!

Just this little piece costs almost $25 can?!!!

And yes, I really love it!

But now, I'll have to remove my crystals or it won't fit in.

And here's a summary of all my surprise presents!!!

Accessories all kept in one little packet (beside monkey).

Alot alot alot huh.

Besides the above, he made a mini video to commemorate this occassion.

It's a collate of our videos, from then to now, with 《我爱他》as background music (my exclusive ringtone he picked for me).

This was extremely touching cos he specially bought the software to make the mini video and had to learn how to use it.

And due to sooooo many presents, we had to bike 2 big bags home!

And BB says that he initially planned to stuff this all into my Burberry bag as a BIG BIG surprise. But, he hasn't been able to meet up with his friend to collect the bag.

So, he feels that it's imperfect.

Also, as he just took his car practical test for the fourth time, he thought that he would be able to pass. and he wanted to pass badly. So, he would be able to borrow his uncle's car and send all these presents and I to Marina Barrage.

He thought of it as a romantic surprise.

So, this contributed to his sadness for failing his car test.

But, even without Marina Barrage, without the Burberry bag, I thought these are all so so so more than sufficient. It feels like a dream. How could such things ever happen to me? These surprises and thoughtfulness and effort can only be seen in the non existing idol drama relationships isn't it?

All just because we know we've to make this 5th year a memorable one.

I'm grateful.

Very.

I appreciate.

Alot.

And when I reached home, trying to dig for my camera in my bag, I found this:

A LOVE LETTER!

I've always beeen very anal about not receiving love letters in the past.
Not anymore.
But, this seems like a dream surprise.
Cos he wrote 4 pages long!

You must be thinking, what good have I done to deserve such a good man right?
Just a pair of surprise tickets for 吴宗宪 康康 小钟 《三大难高音》concert.
And this sweet boy says his present can be left after I find a full time job.

Seriously, I don't know how to react.
Neither do I know how to tell you how much I appreciate these BB.
I can see your effort.
I see your thoughtfulness. Every single bit of them.

I really appreciate, alot alot alot.
And like what you say, I do hope we can be together, forever.
Let's work hard towards this common goal.

Lastly, thank you BB.
I love you. =)

Oh, btw, our anniversary celebration isn't over yet.
Cos bb's bringing me to the ZOO ZOO ZOO tomorrow!
YIPPIEEEE~

I wanna be like my friend, Wan Zhen.

By now you guys should know that I basically own the best friends (one can ever have) in the whole wide world right?

I specially wanna be like one of my angels, WanZhen. Her selfless and humble character inspires me, alot.

We're always on her mind no matter what. She's always trying to gather and meet up her two useless girlfriends, even though she's the busiest of all.
She has the most stable income of us all. Thus, always treating us to good food even when we're supposed to go Dutch.
Not only does she love us, but our families as well. Her gifts are often for MY FAMILY & I.

I often hope that I can get a full time job soon, so as to let my parents and grandma lead a better life. On top of that, I'd love to give my dear friends a treat now and then, presents occasionally or during festives.
This sounds like I'm kinda a good friend too huh?

One of the MANY lame conversations we have everyday.

Me: Wa bb. Luckily your gf has long legs. If she has short legs, then she wouldn't be able to take your bike.
(Cos his bike's very high. To me, it's like a challenge to sit on it everytime.)

Bb: Oh but B..

Me: What?!

Bb: I tell you but you cannot be angry arr.

Me: Ya, what?!

Bb: If I've a skinny gf, then I wouldn't need to buy this bike.
(His bike's very spacious and big.)

Me: Oh but bb, even if you have a skinny gf, you're still fat what. So, you still need a big bike to contain yourself afterall! 

WAHAHA.

Totally, lost.

Everyone's heard of this saying- 希望越大，失望越大。
Nowadays, I no longer anticipate for my romance.
I allow nature to take its course.
And apparently, I became a happier person filled with love.

Career.
Just as I said, two years back I decided that DJ is gonna be my lifetime career.
Now, things changed.
It's not that I no longer love radio.
It's not that I no longer have passion for radio.
I do. Plenty.
Comaprable to anyone else or even more than them.
I love this job, totally.
I place it on my first priority in life.
I care so much about this job that I often have nightmares about it.
No, I'm not kidding.
I always have dreams that I'm late for work, I err on air, etc.
So much so that even if I only had to be on air at 4pm, I reach at 3pm or earlier.
I treasure every single time that I get to go on air.

But so?

Life has never been fair.
I don't fight and I don't snatch.
All I want is to do what I like.
Am I wrong?

Great.
Life turns harder as age increases.
希望越大，失望越大。
Now that I know chances are slim, I no longer wish to anticipate.

I'm sorry if I disappointed many of you.
Still, I thank you for the utmost support I received.

My friends, my superstar friend.

I know I haven't been updating this space for a looooong looong time.
My apologies, if you've been here to check out regularly.
HAHA.

Anyways...

Have there been times where you really really feel happy for your friend(s)?!
I have.
Many times.
When Yihao got into SQ.
When Shonia broke up with her stupid bf.
When WanZhen finally gets some quality time and holiday with Jeb.
When Glenn is forever working so hard and slowly realizing his dreams.
When Zilei opened her 'hanger'.
When Melvin sent in his resume.


Have there been times when you really can't help but feel so so so proud of your friends?
I have.
Regularly. Often. Always.


Friends take up a lot a lot of me.
I am happy to have them as my guardian angels who are always by my side.
Thank you all my dears.


OH.
The main point of this post is not so much about friends.
Is more about me having a friend who freaking got into the TOP 20 of <才华横溢出新秀2010>!
Yes.
LAI YIHAO that is.


Pleaseeeeeeeeeee give him your utmost support when the competition officially starts huh!
Join his fanclub (coming soon!) and go down on site to support when necessary k?!
THANK YOU in advance!

WOOHOO~

Helpless.

Sometimes I feel so useless.
I know how bad it feels when experiencing a break-up.
I wanna help.
Yet I can't and I don't know how.
Please be good my dear.

As compared, I feel so bad.
Because here I am, a heart filled with love from Yaya everyday.
This boy is really one hell of sweet.
As compared, I also feel blessed with Yaya.
Thank you aplenty my dear boy.

Part 1: Travelling from Singapore to OKC.

I've been dragging this for quite some time.
And I decided to do this bit by bit, area by area.
Not so much of sharing but more of notes to myself.

Firstly, memories of travelling from Singapore to the faraway Oklahoma City, USA.


-Flight at Changi Airport on 23 April, 0055h. Thursday 'night'.
-Sent off by parents, ah ma, ken, steph, alas, Limei, DaWee, yaya.
-To Shanghai for transit, 5 hours.
-Glenn & I had emergency exit seats.
-Reached in morning.
-Transit time, 6 hours.
-Wanted to go out town, but was too expensive.
-Had delicious KFC's cheap breakfast.
-Experienced the not-so-cold Shanghai air.
-Lionel's nose was running like a tap.
-Jo got him the funny bird mask.
-Bought loads of tasty titbits as shown above.
-All was freaking tired but was not allowed to sleep, till next flight to adjust time lag.
-Bought stacks of magazines as it was dirt cheap!
-Flight to New York at 1200h.
-Duration, 15 hours +.
-FCUKING IRRITATING WHINY CHINA KID CRYING NON STOP & his stupid dad.
-All masks on for hydrating skin!
-Lionel was home sick and wanted to go home. HAHA.
-He got more emo after watching korean drama on plane.
-'Ice Mountains' scenary.
-A packet of Lay's burst open due to pressure.
-Finally arrived at New York.
-Friendly custom officer who called us Sweetheart.
-Experienced the super windy New York.
-Stupid train station to domestic flights airport with no signages.
-Joanne went in train and doors closed. She left alone (and came back later). HAHA.
-Unable to check in domestic flight to Dallas, then OKC.
-Had to go Laguardia Airport to catch only way to OKC for the day.
-Took 'daylight robbery' cab ride.
-Supposed to only pay US$13 each. Ended up paying US$39 each.
-Called Virginia at airport.
-Flight to Dallas. All seperate seatings.
-Guy beside me ordered loads of food and drinks at ridiculous prices.
-Flight was slower than usual due to bead weather.
-Delayed again.
-Arrived at Dallas, Fortworth.
-Had to run to next check in place for flight to OKC.
-On plane and waited for a long time before taking off, cos there was no pilot!
-Had to wait for another pilot to fly us.
-Seated with Zilei and Jo.
-Fast flight to OKC.
-Arrived and Marriott van wasn't there to pick us up.
-A friendly guy offered us his hp to call Marriott.
-Vicky answered. Couldn't understand her.
-Was told to take a cab to Marriott and they would pay.
-Real cold and windy at OKC airport.
-Cab driver Greg was friendly.
-Realised that cabs couldn't print receipts like ours.
-Vicky said Greg's cab was expensive and told us not to call him next time.
-Arrived on Friday night, Saturday morning.
-So, WE COULD CHECK-IN!
-Given Room 824 after tiring flights.

-To be continued-

永远的女子天团，S.H.E

和很多人一样，我喜欢S.H.E。 喜欢她们超和谐的歌声。 喜欢她们非一般的奇妙默契。 喜欢她们坚固，感人的友情。 喜欢她们的坦率，搞笑，不做作。 等。 总觉得，S.H.E是绝配。 和其他艺人比起来，就是不一样。 这让我想支持她们。 上个月底，在S.H.E小巨蛋演唱会的Encore表演中，因为律师男友的关系，Selina秘密谈了3年的地下情，终于浮上台面。 看了告白短篇，身为歌迷的我非常的为她开心，感动。由于我哭点很低，所以也跟着流泪了。 疼惜因为她们＂艺＂与常＂人＂，所以身不由己。就算开心，幸福的恋爱中，也不能承认。 但我也为她开心，因为虽然等了9年，但至少今天她在演艺圈的身份，地位，终于允许她公开真相。 也因为这个告白，让我们理解到了＜安静了＞这首歌背后的主角与含义。再次的听，感动多了。 看到三个女生成长为女人，勇敢而且永不放弃的爱，真的- 感动。 S.H.E是个传奇。

I'm "freaking" 22!

A year just passed like that.
Yes, I'm officially 22. Dread this fact though :(


Ok. What happened was I landed on 8 June, 0500h. Straight after, I took a flight to Thailand with my dear Yaya and his family.
This boy of mine is really ultimate sweet.
This trip is actually a big surprise as he time and again stopped me from withdrawing cash.
Considering the fact that he loves me to pick my own presents, he SPONSORED the whole trip.
From flight to lodging to every little single thing I bought.
Whenever I wanna purchase something, I just have to tell him the amount to pay.
HAHA.
And when I'm considering if I should get this particular stuff or not, he ALWAYS say, "You like just buy. Never mind the amount."
Awww right?
Not only so, he always snatch to carry all my stuff even though I always insist on carrying some to share the load.
THANK YOU FAT BB YAYA!


Would love to take this opportunity to thank every single one of you who made an effort to remember this day. Be it if you sent me an SMS or a little message on FB, THANK YOU!
I really appreciate this loads.


Of course, special thanks to all my sweet dear friends who surprised me at airport as early as 5am. HAHA.
BIG BIG THANK YOU!

Happy Travelling!

Ever since we left Arizona, my mood has been good good good. Somehow or rather, I left my depression mode behind me.

I was guessing, it must have been the lodging.
I fucking hated the place we stayed at Arizona, that's why.

For Las Vegas, we thought we booked a HOSTEL at USD15 per night for each pax. Little did we know that the place turned out to be a HOTEL where 4 of us can stay together!!! And the place was somehow hot but awesome!
Then for Los Angeles where I'm currently at, we booked for a TWENTY bed dorm and they automatically upgraded us to a 4-bed private room!!!!! Of course, same rate for the 20 bed dorm! Hee. And I love the places where we've been too... Hollywood and the pretty beaches!

Like WOW right?!
Lady luck's been with us!
Cool!

And later tonight, we'll be leaving for San Francisco. Not exactly excited yet, unless I get to see the condition of where we're staying. Pleaseeee, let the 6-bed dorm just contain only the 4 of us.

God bless us for a safe and fun trip!

Ciao.

Breakdown.

For the 101 times i've said this,
I feel miserable.
I wanna go home.

I admit defeat. I'm just weak.
I'm just not cut to travel for so long.
I feel so tired of missing everyone.
I feel like crying everyday and I feel so tired of crying over every slightest thing.
Because besides crying, I don't know of anything else I can do to help myself.

I think I may just develop depression.

I need to go home, badly.

心痛

在到Arizona的19个小时路途，我想了很多。几乎无所不想。

我发现，不知道从什么时候开始，我了解世上没有永恒。尤其是我最不愿意承认的- 恋情。
但我不想妥协。只想勇敢的爱，轰轰烈烈的爱。

生命的短暂让我想更珍惜现有的一切。家人、恋人、朋友是我的所有。

一路一直有着很心痛的感觉。
或许是太多牵挂的关系吧？
从不晓得原来我真的很爱家。
再次的体会，生命中根本不能没有你。
眼泪不停的流却也丝毫不减我的心痛。

我真的很想家，很想你。
亲爱的，陪着我一起倒数22天好吗？

Goodbye OKLAHOMA CITY.

I still clearly remember how excited we were when we landed in OKC despite the superrr tiring flights. The journey from airport and finally to hotel, we anticipated. The only thing that I'll miss in OKC is our hotel room. It's so cosy and filled with overflowing chlorofoam which lets us drown in our dreams. Of course, zilei, as she will not be joining us for the next three weeks.

I officially declare now that I SUPER MISS HOME, except for the weather. If I knew zilei would be going home initially, I would do so too.

Still, goodbye oklahoma city, and HELLO ARIZONA after 16 hours of bus ride.

Last week at OKC.

Hello peeps.
My apologies if you've been constantly coming back to check for my updates.
Cos, life here is so slack that I do not feel like updating at all.
Another thing is that, I haven't uploaded any other photos to share.
So sorry!

Anyway, this is gonna be my last week here at OKC and we will be heading to Arizona next Sunday! With that, we've been constantly making full use of time! We've been to strip clubs and even clubs like Coyote Ugly. Hgh high high! And yesterday was spastic because apparently I was high and did many nonsenstical stuffs. HEHE.

Memories!

And, we eating here is so expensive. One normal meal normally starts from US$7. This sucks, especially when you pay so much for unhealthy food. Fastfood is cheap though. But we try to avoid eating that as we watched a video in class and those are seriously CRAP food. So, fat fat fat!

Alright. I don't know what else more to say.

Good night! =)

HELLO FROM OKLAHOMA CITY!

Firstly, according to my time, now is a Friday night.
I'm 13 hours behind you guys.
We've been here for 7 days and this is the first time I'm updating my blog.
And here's an official BIG HELLO from Oklahoma City!

Life here isn't exactly exciting because we've to board the bus and head for school every 8.30am.
But everyday is definately full of laughter and juicy gossips thanks to my room mates.
Joanne's cunning ideas.
Glenn's occassional anger and funniness.
Lionel's whining and childishness.
Zilei's everything.
They are the reasons to why this trip is fun and meaningful.
It's just a pity that Zilei decided to not join us for the remaining 3 weeks.

I feel like admitting that I've been emoing.
Even this instant.
I can't help but miss my home.
Miss my LaLa.
Miss my friends.
Well. Basically everything but the hot sweaty weather.

Still, it's the fact that I've sooooooo many days left to endure and go through.
Even though..
I know I will feel sad when I've to leave USA.
This sucks.
It's an irony that I always have in me.

Well. On a happier note, we went through loads of funny stuff.
We've been very paranoid about "safety" ever since we reached here.

1. We went to a supermart with Lionel wearing berms. Many took note of his VERY attention grabbing "Mother Mary" tatoo and started talking to him. One of them whom he attracted is definately a psycho. He called himself Jesus and said he was in a gang bang and all shit. This really scared us big time.

2. There's this guy called JQ in my class whom everyone always mock at. These days, he doesn't seem to be his usual self. Hence we came up with the conclusion that one of these days he will kill those who bullied him and us. Finally, himself. He is really getting more and more freaky as days pass.

3. Because of JQ and weapons being legal here, we became ultimate scaredy cats. There was this day when we felt someone throw something on our window, our thoughts went really wild. Glenn pictured JQ standing outside our home, playing guitar (he likes Zilei btw) and finishes the song by taking a gun out, pointing at us. HAHA. It ended up being these 2 guys who weren't sure of our room number and they wanted to test water first.

4. Today, someone knocked on our door again. It took so long before Lionel and I stepped forward to check it out. And yes, it was them again. HAHA.

Just some funny stuff to commemorate my teeny exciting life in OKC though. The truth is that 3/4 of our time is occupied by chilling and gossiping. HAHA.

Anyway, Dallas SHOPPING TRIP is just tomorrow. Hope that things are really cheap.
*Anticipate*!


CIAOss.

Sadness.

My heart aches so much at the thought of leaving tomorrow. I so feel like stopping the time and that I don't have to go.

My family. Everyone is so worried about me, about the trip. I feel so bad. Grandma's celebrating her 70th birthday on 17 May. Yet I'm all alone, away. I so wanna celebrate and chip in for her dinner too.

My yaya. My biggest worry and fear. I feel so bad for leaving him all alone here for 1.5 months. The last time when he went shanghai for 5 days, I cried like there's no tomorrow. And ever since, he brings me along everywhere. I fear not being able to contact him. I fear that he'll be lonely and yet doesn't know how to call his friends. So, please date him out people. Thank you. I feel lost, leaving you behind, being without you bb.

This feeling sucks big time.
I hate it.

Last one, before US.

I haven't been updating this place for quite some little time.
That's because I've been really busy.
I have soooo much things to settle and cope with.

Anyway, I wanted to upload some photos and share some stuff.
But, like always, blogger doesn't allow me to.
So, fuck it.
I'm not sharing anymore.

Anyway, S.H.E was great!
Especially when you watch with the right people.
One pity is...
I've already bought the bloody $138 ticket.
Why are we still seated sooooooooooooooooo freaking far behind?!
I don't understand leh!
Haiz.

And I guess this is the last post before US.
None of us will be bringing laptop along.
But, iPhone do wonders remember?
So I'll update on twitter regularly whenever there's wi-fi.
Hence, so tune in to my TWITTER regularly.
And I'll try my best to update this place whenever I can as well.

Lastly, here's my flight schedule.
If everything goes well, I'll be back on June 8.
And if necessary, I'll fly with Yaya to Thailand on that very same day as well.
Otherwise, I'll be back to my sweet home.

Ciaos!

解脱

I finally completed the exam for my last module before going to USA! And the happy thing is That I actually knew how to dl the paper! Haha. I feel sooooo good! With the visa obtained yesterday, I shall prepare for my trip while I play hard in the meantime!

WHOO!

My boyfriend, "默默".

As many of you may know, I will only be back from USA on 8 June, 0600h, my birthday itself. And the best thing is- my boy will be leaving for Thailand on the same day, 0800h flight. And so, there will be no celebration on the actual day.

The main point is..
He was telling me that he may have to take OFF today to celebrate his best buddy, Bing Wang's birthday.
So I was like...
"Eeee so unfair! Bing Wang's birthday can take off, what bout mine?"
Well, I was really kidding.
And he started harping about me agreeing to his trip on my birthday.

Then guess what.
He said he will be attending his best campmate, Poh Teng's birthday on the night before Thailand's trip. Cos it so happened that Poh Teng is turning 21 on June 8.
And so I said.. "Wa! First Bing Wang, now Poh Teng! Then what bout me?"
Then he said.. "Oh, shall we celebrate before you go USA (where got people celebrate sooooo in advance one?) or after you come back?"
Well, I said, "knn. Don't wanna celebrate la!" HAHA..

Then he told me not to regret cos he had already thought of where to bring me to.
And well, it's our local Universal Studio.

Me: "CHEY! I going to the USA one. Why should I still go Singapore's?"
MUHAHAHA.

Still, I know your efforts that you 默默-ly give, BB! That's why I'm blogging now. But, can we have something better, pleaseeeeeee.

I heart my boy who constantly 默默付出.
Hurhur.

Just but another update.

Ever since I had Twitter, blogging becomes a hassle somehow.
Still, I will try my best to blog la.

Anyway, I was cruising in FB and I spotted my friend's sis's profile.
I clicked in and browsed through her wedding photos.
I was only primary 5 when I first met her..
Since then, she was already together with her fiance.
Well, they had been together since secondary school.
However, they broke off for sometime in between.
Still, all well ends well.
I feel very happy for her.

And, 88.3 JIA FM celebrated our third birthday!
Everything was good!
From the place to audience to performance.
We had fun!
And it was kinda surprising that the whole Dragonfly was filled up,
with many listeners still queuing outside even though the show had started way ago.
Apologies, by the way.

Oh yea, I loved my hair that night!
Thank you IVY from Phase Salon!

Just some highlights..

Yea, the only 2 PT PPs of 88.3 JIA.

And of course, the reunion of my guardian angels and I.
From left: ChengYao, Darryl, Melvin.

Heh. BB came with Kaining and Fabian to support as well.
And didn't manage to take a photo with Yihao and Glenn, as they were in the crowd.
Big Thank You!

This is ShiHan, hosting 5PM - 8PM with DeJiang daily.
She said that she's very touched to see Darryl and my 'accomplishments' today.
Well, she was full of praises for me. (*paiseh*)
Thank you!

Lastly, you must have seen her if you watch TV early enough.
YouYi from Channel 8's 早安您好.
And yes, she was from 88.3 JIA FM.
She was telling me that she's proud of me, as she saw me progress from zero.
HAHA.
Cos, she remembers me wayyy back from the VERY first audition
of Campus Reporter at Jurong Entertainment Centre.

I'm not being boastful of the compliments I received.
I just feel touched that there are people who recognizes my hard work.
And most importantly, they are willing to share their thoughts with me.
Telling me about my growth and how well I did.
I see DJ-ing as my lifetime career and I do hope that there's a path waiting for me out there, somewhere.

Dear God, thank you for all the love and care you've been showering.