It's just another emo moment.

I don't know if I will be able to do so, but I will try.
And that's to... "Expect lesser".

I wanna free myself from pain.
I wanna stop being disappointed 10 out of 10 times.
I wanna end all despair.

Instead...

I wanna treasure what I have now.
I wanna thank God for everything in my life.

I really don't know if I will be able to do it.
But I hope I will feel a teeny happier this way.
It's a tough fight. Still, I will try.
Because this is the route I chose.
And this is the only way I can treat myself better.

Sometimes, I feel lost.
Very.
But I know for a fact that I have my guardian angels with me.

Thank God. =)

Filled with activities neh!

Sometimes I really wonder if there's a defect in my brain, somewhere.
My memory is failing me, terribly.
But why?! I love broccoli lae.
And I know how stupid I am, but it's really worsening.
I guess there must be some hidden mental illness somewhere.
OH NO!

Anyway, the moral of the story is.....
I forgot to update the photos of recent activities.
Yet, I thought I did.
Alright, don't even try to console me by using the word "BLUR",
because I believe there's definately more to it. =(

OK! PRAWNING! With Yaya, Kaining and Fabian (Kai's bf).
We tried out the one in Pungol Marina Country Club.
For the first two hours, guess how many we fished?
TWO! = S$10 / prawn (S$30/ 3 hours).
WOW right!
Then there was this group who went home and..
They gave us a big fresh bag of C. HUM! =D
Therefore final results, 24!

Next was...
Bukit Timah Hill with no sleep at all after prawning!
HAHA.
And yes, we made it!
BUT!
The journey was fucking tedious!
And I told yaya to slap me if I were to think of going there again!
And yes, Glenn's planning the next trip soon.
BB.. How?!

My everything.

Since young, out of the three children, mummy always says i'm the most independent of all. I thought so as well and believe this somehow has something to do with me being the second child. Neglected, often.

Until i had you in my life, things changed.

I no longer had to be independent and needn't had to depend on myself for everything. No matter what, I know you'll always be there and I'll have someone to fall back on. These make me feel very handicapped without you.

That day I asked you.
"Bb, do you feel like my big tree? You hold on to the responsibility of sheltering me from everthing and you're just so reliable." You said yes.
"So in this case, do you feel that you've to hang in there no matter what? Because you have me to look after." You said yes and continued joking, asking if I'll hide under you when there're lightnings striking.

What I wanna say is...
Even lifts in CMPB are given a break during weekends. Moreover humans? We get tired.

Therefore Bb, you may continue being your big strong tree. Meanwhile, I'll try to transform into a small growing tree to ease your burden. This way, we get to support each other no matter what season or weather to come.

Just like yesterday, I know how much you hated climbing the bukit timah hill. Still, you went. Throughout, you were tired too. But you persisted there for me, knowing that I need you.
I'm aware that you've been trekking behind me to ensure my safety. Even if I were to fall back, i have you, this big fat worm as cushion. Haha.

Thank you, my Bb YAYA. =)

My luckiness..

I really feel my luckiness in life and thank God for it.
Every little thing counts...

Being a mild overweight from sec 1 to
the obesity today, I seldom receive snarls from people around me. And I do know how nasty can people get at mocking at fatties. The feeling sucks.

Most importantly, my friends in my life. Be it if you're here to stay or just a passerby, I'm sure we had fun. Because I hardly had to deal with sickening politics and am sure of your genuity towards me.

Last month, the worst days of my life.
I saw how my friends stood by me.
Some told me yaya's not worth.
Some told me cracks would only continue to crack even more.
Some cried with me while listening to me talk about us.
Some were really angry with how yaya treated me and wanted me to give him up.
Some wanted me to continue the way I loved yaya, for he will be back.

No matter what it WAS, thank you my friends.
Because when you guys knew we were back together, you all did not even hesitate to support me, support us. Even those who wanted me to give yaya up so badly last month.

Whenever we talk on the phone or thru the net, all you guys wanted to know was that I'm happy with what I have now and that I'm doing great! Lastly, that you will always be here no matter what.

Thank you my friends.
I know I've said these N times.
But I sincerely appreciate and love you guys!

Another lucky thing in my life is-
To have met and have you in my life, my BB yaya.
I believe you may not be the best boyfriend in this world, but at least the best yaya that I can have. If I were to list out your good, I'm sure you'll get snatched away. So I'm not gonna do that. The most I would say is what you just copied after me yesterday. Haha. "Honesty is your best policy." I thank God for having you in my life and hope that you're here to stay for good.

Also, my dream job and course is definately the work of God and wonders if luck.

I just feel that I'm grateful for all that I have today and I'll continue to "Treasure love and Love life."

Hello Postman!

I enjoy online shopping a lot.
Things are extraordinarily cheap and good to use.
The anticipation is just so exciting!
And I simply love to receive packages in the letter box.
It's just like I pay small money for the items and yet I get big happiness in return.
Upon receiving and opening the packages makes me feel as if it's Christmas, always.
HAHA.
Oh! It's more fun when you receive everything that you order at the same time.
That means you don't know what you'll get upon opening the package!
HAHA.

Oh. My nails this time round.

Freaking cheap.
3 layers of nail polish, base+ glitter tip+ big dust.
And!
My not-so-nice sulpture.
=
S$30/- only! HAHA.

Though my bright pink sculpture doesn't suit my base, all thanks to the manicurist, still, I love my nails a lot a lot a lot...
My pretty nails just brighten up my day everytime.
HAHA.
If only yaya has time to go in JB with me frequently, I will have more pretty nails to share!
=)
But I bet he wouldn't want.
Because that means he has to wait for a 2 hours everytime while I'm enjoying the process.
All alone, slacking on the sofa until he falls asleep accidentally.
Poor boy. HAHA.

超级推荐!

I think S.H.E's book is worth buying.
Not only because I like them.
But it's interesting to know that they CAN write.


Selina's stories are less nutritious, I feel.
Very much of her. Jealousy, princessy, vain-pot, etc.
Hebe's writing is too chim for me. (WOW!)
Still, much of what she wrote make big big sense.
Ella's most touching and easily understood.
Can you believe that I cried a few times because of what she wrote?
Ok. I bet you can. Cos, I just love to cry. -_-"

The book is freaking thick. Worth it!
I've been reading bit by bit for days and.. the book just doesn't seem to end.
HAHA.

I would pick out a few points of what I think they said is SUPER true.
Then, I'll share it here.
Which means...
I've to read the book from scratch again.

Well, I'm just so free like always.

Anyway, JB today entittled me with PRETTY nails!
Which means, I'm happier because of that.
HAHA.
And... Cheap cheap buys from Watson's!
Plus cheap and good food!
I think it's only right that we earn big money in Singapore,
and spend small money in Malaysia.
=)

Bloody 195!

I don't really like my slot at 883.
1600h - 2000h.
I can't have dinner.
I can only leave at 2000h, even when my last talk break ends at 1950h.

And you know how uloo CMPB is right?
The atmosphere here is stale and scary!
Another sickening thing is...
There's only ONE bloody 195 that takes me to MRT station.
And the frequency of this bus is incredibly low!

See what I mean...

It's 31 MINUTES!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
The ONLY bus to MRT station.
Sucks.
Fuck.

Copy Cat or not?

HAHA.
If you've ever seen Yaya dressed in this way,
have you ever thought that,
"Eh? Quite fashionable and good-looking hor?"
It's ok if you don't think so. -_-"
But I do leh.
Hehe.
Because, I'm the stylist la.

Below: "Artiste" Darren Ho
(Top & Bag from Thailand,
Necklace from Genting,
Watch from Puma,
Belt from 77th Street,
Jeans from Messy,
Sandals from Beetle Bug.)

Below:
Artiste "SS501".
(Wonder if you remember that I've mentioned my love for them before.)
Notice Kim Hyun Joong who is circled in red.

His attire familiar hor?
HAHA.

I think I'm kinda successful in copying dressing.
HAHA.
Don't you think so?
Just the sandals alone is already a success.
Plus the jeans.. WAHAHA.
Oh.
Actually the top which I bought from BKK is meant to be oversized.
Cos Kim Hyun Joong's is.
But, it turned out to be fitting lae.
What to do?
Still, I love it when yaya dresses this way.
帅！:D

Oh.
Please leave a note on tagboard to book an appointment with me la.
Charges apply. =)

My loves.

I am happy to have such good friends.
Just like my guardian angels, always there.
Call me a crybaby.
But I'm really touched.

Just one SMS, one simple action says it all.
You all love me.
So do I.
Thank you and I appreciate with my life.
=)

I often get misunderstood for many things.
Without further asking, you guys back me up like always.
Thank you.

With my guardian angels, I learnt to think on the bright side.
I laugh when I'm happy, cry when I'm down.
I do not hide.
Because I remember the fact that life is short.
I want to treasure all that I have.

Just like me, Yaya gets misunderstood.
Not often, but always.
Different from me, he keeps things all to himself.
Many times, he doesn't share.
Not even with me.
I feel for him but that's his choice.
Still, I hope there's this day when he opens up himself to all.
Because, sometimes, silence kills.

Now, I looks things from another angle and that eases me from pain.
And this is what I want.
"HAPPINESS".

Fucking idiot.

I slept at 2 this morning.
When I was sound asleep, I felt my hp vibrating.
It was 3+am then.
I answered.

"BB! Someone stole my wallet!"

I only remembered saying..
"Huh then how?"

Well.
There goes a S$615 LV.

Fuck you thief!
I seldom curse at people.
But, I'm really freaking angry and pissed.

Do you know the story behind the wallet not?
Do you know how much the wallet meant to us?
Do you know that I bought the S$615 wallet with only S$620 in my bank account?
Do you know how hard I planned for that suprise, just to commemorate our 3rd year anniversary?
Do you know how careful BB was with the wallet not?

Fuck you bastard.
FUCK YOU!

Why are there just such people on Earth?
Camp is supposed to be the second home for all NS Men.
Yet, people in there steal things from their home.
What kind of logic is that?
If you can't afford to own a LV, well, accept the fact!
Why resort to stealing?

ARGH.
An insider thing we guess.He left all BB's cards behind.

I hope you will get convicted by the law someday.
Or, your whole house gets stolen another day.
Best, your gf also get stolen.

FUCK YOU, ASSHOLE!