The employee from this company is out of love and still has to listen to...
"NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE", the song which she wanted to play on her wedding.
Not only that, she can't sound a trace of sadness and emo-ness when talking.
Professionalism means she has to sound happy, joyous, elated!
And the employee is just soooo fcuking professional that you will think that she just won a few million dollars from Singapore Pools!
WOW.
The best job in the world huh.
Anyway, Willis said Liping and him will witness my wedding, with this song playing.
SO TOUCHED!
But, I didn't have a chance to reply..
"Eh, you 2 help me sing live on my wedding la! Be it nice or not.."
HAHAHA!
Appreciate laaaaa.
And this song never fails to make me cry.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
(她)非常的潇洒！
I have this gay friend..
And he's out of love recently.
So I was talking to him on FB.
And he said..
"I'm sad and frustrated, but I'm gonna move on.
Because I know I have criterias and I'm gonna find someone better.
If I keep being sad, who is going to pity me when I'm old and all alone?
No one de!
And, I changed 6 angmoh BFs (all below 30 years-old) in 2 years leh.
So, the next one will be better!"
WOW!
Super 潇洒.
But, I'm not leh.
I guess we're different from him.
Somehow, somewhat.
And he's out of love recently.
So I was talking to him on FB.
And he said..
"I'm sad and frustrated, but I'm gonna move on.
Because I know I have criterias and I'm gonna find someone better.
If I keep being sad, who is going to pity me when I'm old and all alone?
No one de!
And, I changed 6 angmoh BFs (all below 30 years-old) in 2 years leh.
So, the next one will be better!"
WOW!
Super 潇洒.
But, I'm not leh.
I guess we're different from him.
Somehow, somewhat.
Am I making sense?
Being on-air all alone with the love songs never fails to make me vulnerable.
I feel so down now.
Yet again, listen to how chirpy I am.
I love to read my friends' blogs.
I'm really happy for them when they mention how in love they are, how sweet their other halves are, etc.
But I also can't help feeling FCUKING jealous.
I mean it.
And I just can't stop myself from thinking about you.
Every hour, every minute and even every second.
This feeling sucks although I'm always thinking about the happy times we had.
But at times, or always, my thoughts run wild. VERY wild in fact.
HAHA.
What if you don't come back anymore?
What if you just don't love me anymore?
What if I were to die suddenly? Will you be sad and regret?
What if I just meet a guy and be together with him?
What if I have to migrate and never come back anymore?
I never knew that I had such abilities of imagining.
But I think I am correct.
As in, I know very clearly that I lovee you and I want to be with you.
I don't wanna wait any further to have any regrets in future.
But I know that you need time yourself now.
So it's kind of a contradict thing.
HOWWWWW?!
Haiz.
I don't know la seriously.
But I think I really needa start preparing for exam already.
=(
I feel so down now.
Yet again, listen to how chirpy I am.
I love to read my friends' blogs.
I'm really happy for them when they mention how in love they are, how sweet their other halves are, etc.
But I also can't help feeling FCUKING jealous.
I mean it.
And I just can't stop myself from thinking about you.
Every hour, every minute and even every second.
This feeling sucks although I'm always thinking about the happy times we had.
But at times, or always, my thoughts run wild. VERY wild in fact.
HAHA.
What if you don't come back anymore?
What if you just don't love me anymore?
What if I were to die suddenly? Will you be sad and regret?
What if I just meet a guy and be together with him?
What if I have to migrate and never come back anymore?
I never knew that I had such abilities of imagining.
But I think I am correct.
As in, I know very clearly that I lovee you and I want to be with you.
I don't wanna wait any further to have any regrets in future.
But I know that you need time yourself now.
So it's kind of a contradict thing.
HOWWWWW?!
Haiz.
I don't know la seriously.
But I think I really needa start preparing for exam already.
=(
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Recently..
For this whole week, I'm doing 6 shifts.
Hence, feeling freaking shagged now.
Still, one more shift + 883 to go tomorrow.
And, I haven't been studying lehh.
SHHHHHHHHH.
I was reading Women's Weekly today.
The real life story-articles are quite interesting.
I know that it's never easy to maintain a relationship.
But I guess it's even tougher to let a marriage work.
Especially when all men cheat.
This sucks.
Still, I thought about us and I think we can do it.
Because Leos are faithful and I know what kind of a person you are.
I really wanna be with you, together, forever.
I saw a picture of a bedroom and that is the design I want ours to be.
I don't want a room by myself anymore, because I wanna snuggle with you everyday.
I don't want a 3-room flat anymore, because I want a room to be used for our clothes and also also another to be a study room.
HAIZ.
Now, these are all nothing but THOUGHTS.
Imagination.
Thinking that you are still mine.
The thought of you not coming back and forgetting me eventually hurts me like crazy.
My life sucks.
Hence, feeling freaking shagged now.
Still, one more shift + 883 to go tomorrow.
And, I haven't been studying lehh.
SHHHHHHHHH.
I was reading Women's Weekly today.
The real life story-articles are quite interesting.
I know that it's never easy to maintain a relationship.
But I guess it's even tougher to let a marriage work.
Especially when all men cheat.
This sucks.
Still, I thought about us and I think we can do it.
Because Leos are faithful and I know what kind of a person you are.
I really wanna be with you, together, forever.
I saw a picture of a bedroom and that is the design I want ours to be.
I don't want a room by myself anymore, because I wanna snuggle with you everyday.
I don't want a 3-room flat anymore, because I want a room to be used for our clothes and also also another to be a study room.
HAIZ.
Now, these are all nothing but THOUGHTS.
Imagination.
Thinking that you are still mine.
The thought of you not coming back and forgetting me eventually hurts me like crazy.
My life sucks.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Ups AND Downs.
Work from 0745h - 1700h today.
There's this 26 years-old colleague who applied for flat with his gf.
I asked him, how long have they been together, he said he doesn't know, because they broke off for 1 or 2 years once, plus some other little breakups here and there.
It suddenly strike me that, if two are meant to be, eventually it just works out.
Perhaps Lionel is right.
I am only 21.
I am not mature enough to handle a relationship that can last all the way till marriage (Supposedly, 2016).
But it really saddens me that things turn out this way.
It hurts me, alot.
Then there's this 24 years-old guy who has been with his gf for 6 years.
He said it's not easy to walk till this stage.
They quarrelled, and still quarrel.
But, they talk things out and solve their problems.
And he has plans to marry his gf, who is his first love.
I feel so lonely without you.
I am trying so hard to not think.
But I can't.
I wanna call my friends up, but I know I should disturb them no more.
My bus rides are so lonely now.
Because I know I can't message you saying how cold I am anymore.
Still, I miss you telling me that you are sorry for not being to ride with me and to protect me from the cold with your hugs.
Now, all I do is to stare blank on the bus journeys, missing you.
I really really miss you a lot do you know?
I feel terrible.
I hate myself for thinking of you every little second.
And I hate myself even more for thinking that I will spot you somewhere.
This morning, I saw someone who looks like you from far.
The dressing, the Crumpler bag that you have.
My heart stopped beating for a moment, and then I told myself it can't you.
Worse, I start imagining that you will surprise me at my workplace, coming to send me home.
And if you don't, I tell myself that you are at my house downstairs.
I hate myself.
I really do.
I don't know why am I thinking of this, and of that, when I know it's not right and I should just stop it.
Fcuk.
There's this 26 years-old colleague who applied for flat with his gf.
I asked him, how long have they been together, he said he doesn't know, because they broke off for 1 or 2 years once, plus some other little breakups here and there.
It suddenly strike me that, if two are meant to be, eventually it just works out.
Perhaps Lionel is right.
I am only 21.
I am not mature enough to handle a relationship that can last all the way till marriage (Supposedly, 2016).
But it really saddens me that things turn out this way.
It hurts me, alot.
Then there's this 24 years-old guy who has been with his gf for 6 years.
He said it's not easy to walk till this stage.
They quarrelled, and still quarrel.
But, they talk things out and solve their problems.
And he has plans to marry his gf, who is his first love.
I feel so lonely without you.
I am trying so hard to not think.
But I can't.
I wanna call my friends up, but I know I should disturb them no more.
My bus rides are so lonely now.
Because I know I can't message you saying how cold I am anymore.
Still, I miss you telling me that you are sorry for not being to ride with me and to protect me from the cold with your hugs.
Now, all I do is to stare blank on the bus journeys, missing you.
I really really miss you a lot do you know?
I feel terrible.
I hate myself for thinking of you every little second.
And I hate myself even more for thinking that I will spot you somewhere.
This morning, I saw someone who looks like you from far.
The dressing, the Crumpler bag that you have.
My heart stopped beating for a moment, and then I told myself it can't you.
Worse, I start imagining that you will surprise me at my workplace, coming to send me home.
And if you don't, I tell myself that you are at my house downstairs.
I hate myself.
I really do.
I don't know why am I thinking of this, and of that, when I know it's not right and I should just stop it.
Fcuk.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
I know I'm random,
I realised that I made sooooo many posts just for October.
But this is my space for my thoughts in the first place right?
Anyway, I was reading my archives.
And i realised so many sweet stuff about you.
I was able to write it down last time, but I didn't exactly treasure.
Or never really "realised".
I'm sorry.
Also, it's been a long long way back that actually I don't honour my promises.
It's just that I didn't realise it myself.
I say stuff like I wanna upload certain photos, but I mostly didn't.
Not because I delibrately wanted to break promises.
But because I cleanly forgotten!
Really.
Can I change my brains away?!
And I so miss you.
I so miss us.
In so many posts, I stated that we will be together forever.
Because you said so, and I thought so.
But now? ...
I am having headache.
I have numbed hands..
Why?
HAIZ.
But this is my space for my thoughts in the first place right?
Anyway, I was reading my archives.
And i realised so many sweet stuff about you.
I was able to write it down last time, but I didn't exactly treasure.
Or never really "realised".
I'm sorry.
Also, it's been a long long way back that actually I don't honour my promises.
It's just that I didn't realise it myself.
I say stuff like I wanna upload certain photos, but I mostly didn't.
Not because I delibrately wanted to break promises.
But because I cleanly forgotten!
Really.
Can I change my brains away?!
And I so miss you.
I so miss us.
In so many posts, I stated that we will be together forever.
Because you said so, and I thought so.
But now? ...
I am having headache.
I have numbed hands..
Why?
HAIZ.
Just thinking...
如果爱情能够被存放在保温瓶里，永不退烧，那该有多好？
但，如果有心，许多周围的事项都是可以化成保温瓶的不是吗？
都怪自己，从没那么想过。
又上了一课啦。
我很不喜欢自己每天都那么忐忑不安。
每天不自觉地就会想起你。
我真的不想把4年变成回忆，变成过去。
它不能够是进行式吗？
但，如果有心，许多周围的事项都是可以化成保温瓶的不是吗？
都怪自己，从没那么想过。
又上了一课啦。
我很不喜欢自己每天都那么忐忑不安。
每天不自觉地就会想起你。
我真的不想把4年变成回忆，变成过去。
它不能够是进行式吗？
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Heavy price in exchange for a lesson.
Recently I've been paying much attention to couples.
Not only those on the streets but also those that i know of.
A few weeks back, I told Joanne..
"Aiya! Break with your bf la. He so kuku.."
But yesterday I said..
"Before you break, better consider well. Don't end up regretting like me. And if you think you love him, just hang on to the relationship no matter what."
HAIZ.
Really learnt my lesson la.
Then today when working, this colleague who knows yaya asked me,
"So how's Darren? Is he very busy in camp?"
I stoned for 3 seconds and said..
"Yea, quite........ And anyway, we broke up already."
It shocked him and all he said was, "Sorry".
And I appreciate that. Because he knows how I feel and therefore no futher probing. =)
I asked him how long has he been together with his gf.
He said 3 years plus, almost coming 4 years.
Then I overheard another colleague saying he has a gf of 4 years 1 month.
FCUK.
HOW JEALOUS!
=P
Still, I asked them.
"How do you maintain your relationship?"
Because I wanna know and true enough, I learned something.
How important is this lesson.
And what a huge price I'm paying for in exchange of these knowledge.
If only "SORRY" is the magic word that in turn results in "FORGIVE".
OH!
I collected my iTouch.
And it totally doesn't look new to me at all.
Just wrapped up with no box or whatever.
But the girl emphasized that it is NEW.
AND AND AND..
I've to go do my skin and screen protector AGAIN.
Sian. Cost $ lehhhhhh.
Lastly, I don't know for how long must I charge it for.
And do I just plug it into the com?
I forgot to ask.
And realised that you were the one who did these stuff for me.. =(
God.....
Not only those on the streets but also those that i know of.
A few weeks back, I told Joanne..
"Aiya! Break with your bf la. He so kuku.."
But yesterday I said..
"Before you break, better consider well. Don't end up regretting like me. And if you think you love him, just hang on to the relationship no matter what."
HAIZ.
Really learnt my lesson la.
Then today when working, this colleague who knows yaya asked me,
"So how's Darren? Is he very busy in camp?"
I stoned for 3 seconds and said..
"Yea, quite........ And anyway, we broke up already."
It shocked him and all he said was, "Sorry".
And I appreciate that. Because he knows how I feel and therefore no futher probing. =)
I asked him how long has he been together with his gf.
He said 3 years plus, almost coming 4 years.
Then I overheard another colleague saying he has a gf of 4 years 1 month.
FCUK.
HOW JEALOUS!
=P
Still, I asked them.
"How do you maintain your relationship?"
Because I wanna know and true enough, I learned something.
How important is this lesson.
And what a huge price I'm paying for in exchange of these knowledge.
If only "SORRY" is the magic word that in turn results in "FORGIVE".
OH!
I collected my iTouch.
And it totally doesn't look new to me at all.
Just wrapped up with no box or whatever.
But the girl emphasized that it is NEW.
AND AND AND..
I've to go do my skin and screen protector AGAIN.
Sian. Cost $ lehhhhhh.
Lastly, I don't know for how long must I charge it for.
And do I just plug it into the com?
I forgot to ask.
And realised that you were the one who did these stuff for me.. =(
God.....
Monday, October 19, 2009
My angelsss.
I am sorry Yihao.
I am sorry Zhen.
I am sorry Chengyao.
I am sorry Shonia.
I am sorry Melvin.
I am sorry for keep bugging you guys.
Seriously.
I call when I miss him.
I call when I'm crying.
I call when I'm not ok.
I call every now and then.
But you guys always say.. "Anything call me ar" at the end of our calls.
I am sorry.
But I am very very very thankful as well.
I know you guys have your own life.
Your own love.
And may be just superrrrr busy.
Still, you all pick up my calls without fail and I will feel superrrr a lot better after that.
You guys know just how much I need you right?
I really appreciate.
And, a big big thank you! =)
I am sorry Zhen.
I am sorry Chengyao.
I am sorry Shonia.
I am sorry Melvin.
I am sorry for keep bugging you guys.
Seriously.
I call when I miss him.
I call when I'm crying.
I call when I'm not ok.
I call every now and then.
But you guys always say.. "Anything call me ar" at the end of our calls.
I am sorry.
But I am very very very thankful as well.
I know you guys have your own life.
Your own love.
And may be just superrrrr busy.
Still, you all pick up my calls without fail and I will feel superrrr a lot better after that.
You guys know just how much I need you right?
I really appreciate.
And, a big big thank you! =)
My boy...
I opened the fridge just now and saw that there's still fresh millk!
The shocking thing is..
Why is it still there after so long?! (Not expired)
Then I realised..
Because you haven't been here for a long time.
I know you loved to stealthily drink milk from my house and will plead guilty when I caught you red handed. HAHA.
Or you will just simply keep bugging me for the milk.
And when I pour you a tiny tweeny cup, you will finish it in one gulp and ask for more.
Just like a big kid.
But I guess I've never told you this before.
I lovee it when you act like a kid.
Because you looked so cute and I know you only do that do me.
I miss the kiddish you.
I miss all of you.
Howw.
The shocking thing is..
Why is it still there after so long?! (Not expired)
Then I realised..
Because you haven't been here for a long time.
I know you loved to stealthily drink milk from my house and will plead guilty when I caught you red handed. HAHA.
Or you will just simply keep bugging me for the milk.
And when I pour you a tiny tweeny cup, you will finish it in one gulp and ask for more.
Just like a big kid.
But I guess I've never told you this before.
I lovee it when you act like a kid.
Because you looked so cute and I know you only do that do me.
I miss the kiddish you.
I miss all of you.
Howw.
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