The third day...

I feel much peaceful today.
I went for a photoshoot, being the superrrr unprofessional makeup artist.
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I know I have many people caring for me out there.
I know I will move on.

Thank you Zhen and Yihao, I know you guys know how important you are.
Thank you C, I really appreciate.

I know how worried my parents are.
So, I gave mummy a big hug when I stepped in the house just now.

I will continue to cry when I feel like it.
Because I cannot erase the fact that we were once a loving pair.
Because I cannot erase the memories we share.
But just as I promised, I will learn as I cry.

I will stop myself from pestering you and I will inform my family not too.
Because I know this is all I can do.

Still, I hold on to the believe that you will come back for me, someday.
And I will wait, patiently, because I know I lovee you.

My excruciating pain.

I think of you every second and I see you everywhere.
On my way to dad's office, I saw CDC students doing bike practical.
I see your happy fat face in my mind.
I hear you telling me about which wrong route you took and how much you wanted me to support you physically. Because you said you can do better with my presence.
Then, Uncle and ah ma asked..
"So what is your bf doing? How old is he?"

Everyone and everything is reminding me of you...

Daddy asked.
"So how are things between you and Darren?"
I kept quiet.
I scared I can't control my tears and will just break down.
But he knows. Mummy knows. Steph knows. Alas knows.
We broke up.

It's been years back since I cried on the bus.
And that was the first time we broke up.
Today, it happened again.
I feel so useless. But I just couldn't not cry.

BB.
I'm holding back myself from calling and SMSing you like what I did everyday.
Instead I divert all my messages for you to Zhen.
I wanna pester you no more.
I'm trying. Really trying very hard.

God, help me please.
I don't know how long more I can take it.
But I promised you, I'll try...
Till the day you come back for me.

I will...

I will listen to Zhen and Yihao.
I will cry; But I will learn and move on as I cry.
I will be good and I will be fine.
I will start eating today because I don't want you to worry about me.

I know you love me.
So do I.
I promise I will wait for you patiently.
I know I don't honour my promises.
But for you, I will try.
I really will.
You would believe me, right?

During this period of time,
for you,
I will try my best to become a better person.
I really will.

A temporary bye, YAYA.

How do I stop the ticker below from counting anymore?
Or how can I not stop the ticker from counting anymore?

Yesterday, I stopped myself time and again to type these.
But I feel so lost.
I cry myself to sleep.
I cry in my dreams when I see and hear you.
I cry myself awake too.
I hate it.

I do not blame you, like what you think I do.
It's all my fault.
Because I took all your hard work for granted.
I didn't know that you tried so hard for me.
I'm all to blame.

I know I'm crying so hard because I lovee you.
I realised that I want you forever.
But it's all too late.
And it's all my fault.

I wanna wake up, telling you about this dream of mine.
Telling you that I dreamt of us breaking up and how afraid I am.
And hear you asking me not to be silly because you will always be here for me, loving me forever.

I deserve it.
It's all my fault.

I feel so tired crying.
But I just can't stop myself.
I feel so sick of calling yihao and zhen,
telling them how pain I feel and crying out loud.

I wanna move on like I promised you.
I really want.
But I don't know where to move from and I can't.

My only motivation now is to hear from you after sometime,
as you promised.
In my heart, I'm praying for a positive reply.
But if you don't, I know that God has other plans for me.

I know we lovee each another.
You just need time to recharge and find your lost self.
I will wait.

Till then, I will take care of myself and try my best to live life.

It's been, FOUR years~

Yes! We've been together for FOUR years!
I know it's not a small number but not a large number as well.
But, we've been through lots of rain and shine.
If not for LaLa's persistance, I guess we won't be here now.
At times I feel like I can just face life alone without him.
But we BOTH know how bad we would feel if that ever happens.
So, I promise I would really try harder next time.

He's bitterly in camp now, and so we don't have any celebration like last year.
His birthday cum anniversary present would be a ZERO surprise iPhone.
And mine would be the S$200 which he sponsored for my Thailand trip.
But till now, he hadn't told me-"HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY BABY!"
So, we shall see huh.. =)

I WANNA BLOG!

Yes, I WANNA BLOG!
But due to staying-home for the past (almost) one month,
I don't have anything to say!
I don't have any photographs to blog!
ARGH.

Anyway,

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO...
KENG KAI NING CALENE!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...
My dearest LOW HUI NGOH
&
YEO HUI YING DENISE!

May ALLLLLLL dreams come true and let's HUAT together! =)

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THANK YOU!

I AM FREAKING HAPPY NOW!

Because of 'this' listener (Michelle) and Cheng Yao.

I received this at 19:20-
'锧�@ up de gd work! I'll be listening till u off duty! Jia you!'

Due to the mess in codes, I replied-
"Thanks for tuning in! You are..."
Thinking that this person is my personal friend.

At 19:30-
'HAHA nvr read my sms properly huh...im michelle! Dun wori jus kiddin, u must be concentrating @work. Anyway,u r reali good,trust me as i always listen 2 tis segment. Other DJs made lots of silly mistakes like repeating song titles or talk wrongly but u nvr!'

Having received sucha an informal reply, I continue to think she is my friend.
I replied-
"Thank you! But, do I know you personally or you are our listener?"

Then, I couldn't wait any longer and called her.
HAHA!
She hung my phone twice and picked up on my third try.
Michelle said that she's a loyal listener of 88.3 and thought that I did a good job.
We chatted for a while and she kept giving me positive comments and compliments.

Like PLEASE!
The probability of having a listener compliment you is 0.00001%.
Probably lower than tio-ing 4D la!
So, I'm touched and happy.
Now, I think that the world is sucha beautiful place, because of such beautiful and sweeeeet people around!
HAHA! I know I change face very fast la..
Still, there are hideous people out there!

Finally, I thanked her for her support and all..

At 19:46-
'TKS 4 calling. Trust me, i jus a listener, not ur fren lah! I always listen wif my heart so im very sure u did much better than others...sincerely! Take care!'

HAHA!
Isn't the world today just so beautiful?!
And Chengyao, thank you for all the encouragement too!
I superrrrrrrrrr appreciate!
You did a dang good job previously as well.
Let's jiayou together and I shall see you in the studio after 2 years!

To all the people who think I'm doing good, THANK YOU!
Be it if you say it out, THANK YOU!
Really appreciate..

Another gathering...

Yesterday, the 6/8-s had another successful gathering!
Same old people, yet 3 new faces after 10 years!
Full of laughters and crap.

Random Thoughts

爱情到底是什么玩意儿，我想没有人能够确实的回答吧？

它有一种让人神魂颠倒的魔力。

能够使你开心的大笑，痛心的哭泣。

有时候会让人突然觉得，我为什么会这样子呢？

对不起，仍然在找寻答案的我真的不晓得。

但是我相信，就算在一起，有一天总是会分开的。

就连曾经被视为神圣的婚姻都能用离婚来解脱，现今社会还有天长地久吗？

别说是一起生活1年，2年。

身旁的情侣朋友甚至在在一起5年，6年后，还是分手了。

长年累月的感情，一夕之间，两个人化成陌生人。

这样真的对吗？我不晓得。

如果现在能够和承尧聊这个话题，他应该会有别于一般的见解和想法吧？

你看，至少亲情和多数的友情是有保证的。

即使没有天长也有地久吧？

现在的我，虽然幸福的沉溺在爱情里，但是，我说但是。

倘若有一天我真的必须要离开你，离开我们，我想我应该能够以豁然的心情应付吧？

不过，我还不想 =）。

没什么，我只是，一时有感而发。