My excruciating pain.

I think of you every second and I see you everywhere.
On my way to dad's office, I saw CDC students doing bike practical.
I see your happy fat face in my mind.
I hear you telling me about which wrong route you took and how much you wanted me to support you physically. Because you said you can do better with my presence.
Then, Uncle and ah ma asked..
"So what is your bf doing? How old is he?"

Everyone and everything is reminding me of you...

Daddy asked.
"So how are things between you and Darren?"
I kept quiet.
I scared I can't control my tears and will just break down.
But he knows. Mummy knows. Steph knows. Alas knows.
We broke up.

It's been years back since I cried on the bus.
And that was the first time we broke up.
Today, it happened again.
I feel so useless. But I just couldn't not cry.

BB.
I'm holding back myself from calling and SMSing you like what I did everyday.
Instead I divert all my messages for you to Zhen.
I wanna pester you no more.
I'm trying. Really trying very hard.

God, help me please.
I don't know how long more I can take it.
But I promised you, I'll try...
Till the day you come back for me.