Helpless.

Sometimes I feel so useless.
I know how bad it feels when experiencing a break-up.
I wanna help.
Yet I can't and I don't know how.
Please be good my dear.

As compared, I feel so bad.
Because here I am, a heart filled with love from Yaya everyday.
This boy is really one hell of sweet.
As compared, I also feel blessed with Yaya.
Thank you aplenty my dear boy.

Part 1: Travelling from Singapore to OKC.

I've been dragging this for quite some time.
And I decided to do this bit by bit, area by area.
Not so much of sharing but more of notes to myself.

Firstly, memories of travelling from Singapore to the faraway Oklahoma City, USA.


-Flight at Changi Airport on 23 April, 0055h. Thursday 'night'.
-Sent off by parents, ah ma, ken, steph, alas, Limei, DaWee, yaya.
-To Shanghai for transit, 5 hours.
-Glenn & I had emergency exit seats.
-Reached in morning.
-Transit time, 6 hours.
-Wanted to go out town, but was too expensive.
-Had delicious KFC's cheap breakfast.
-Experienced the not-so-cold Shanghai air.
-Lionel's nose was running like a tap.
-Jo got him the funny bird mask.
-Bought loads of tasty titbits as shown above.
-All was freaking tired but was not allowed to sleep, till next flight to adjust time lag.
-Bought stacks of magazines as it was dirt cheap!
-Flight to New York at 1200h.
-Duration, 15 hours +.
-FCUKING IRRITATING WHINY CHINA KID CRYING NON STOP & his stupid dad.
-All masks on for hydrating skin!
-Lionel was home sick and wanted to go home. HAHA.
-He got more emo after watching korean drama on plane.
-'Ice Mountains' scenary.
-A packet of Lay's burst open due to pressure.
-Finally arrived at New York.
-Friendly custom officer who called us Sweetheart.
-Experienced the super windy New York.
-Stupid train station to domestic flights airport with no signages.
-Joanne went in train and doors closed. She left alone (and came back later). HAHA.
-Unable to check in domestic flight to Dallas, then OKC.
-Had to go Laguardia Airport to catch only way to OKC for the day.
-Took 'daylight robbery' cab ride.
-Supposed to only pay US$13 each. Ended up paying US$39 each.
-Called Virginia at airport.
-Flight to Dallas. All seperate seatings.
-Guy beside me ordered loads of food and drinks at ridiculous prices.
-Flight was slower than usual due to bead weather.
-Delayed again.
-Arrived at Dallas, Fortworth.
-Had to run to next check in place for flight to OKC.
-On plane and waited for a long time before taking off, cos there was no pilot!
-Had to wait for another pilot to fly us.
-Seated with Zilei and Jo.
-Fast flight to OKC.
-Arrived and Marriott van wasn't there to pick us up.
-A friendly guy offered us his hp to call Marriott.
-Vicky answered. Couldn't understand her.
-Was told to take a cab to Marriott and they would pay.
-Real cold and windy at OKC airport.
-Cab driver Greg was friendly.
-Realised that cabs couldn't print receipts like ours.
-Vicky said Greg's cab was expensive and told us not to call him next time.
-Arrived on Friday night, Saturday morning.
-So, WE COULD CHECK-IN!
-Given Room 824 after tiring flights.

-To be continued-

永远的女子天团，S.H.E

和很多人一样，我喜欢S.H.E。 喜欢她们超和谐的歌声。 喜欢她们非一般的奇妙默契。 喜欢她们坚固，感人的友情。 喜欢她们的坦率，搞笑，不做作。 等。 总觉得，S.H.E是绝配。 和其他艺人比起来，就是不一样。 这让我想支持她们。 上个月底，在S.H.E小巨蛋演唱会的Encore表演中，因为律师男友的关系，Selina秘密谈了3年的地下情，终于浮上台面。 看了告白短篇，身为歌迷的我非常的为她开心，感动。由于我哭点很低，所以也跟着流泪了。 疼惜因为她们＂艺＂与常＂人＂，所以身不由己。就算开心，幸福的恋爱中，也不能承认。 但我也为她开心，因为虽然等了9年，但至少今天她在演艺圈的身份，地位，终于允许她公开真相。 也因为这个告白，让我们理解到了＜安静了＞这首歌背后的主角与含义。再次的听，感动多了。 看到三个女生成长为女人，勇敢而且永不放弃的爱，真的- 感动。 S.H.E是个传奇。

I'm "freaking" 22!

A year just passed like that.
Yes, I'm officially 22. Dread this fact though :(


Ok. What happened was I landed on 8 June, 0500h. Straight after, I took a flight to Thailand with my dear Yaya and his family.
This boy of mine is really ultimate sweet.
This trip is actually a big surprise as he time and again stopped me from withdrawing cash.
Considering the fact that he loves me to pick my own presents, he SPONSORED the whole trip.
From flight to lodging to every little single thing I bought.
Whenever I wanna purchase something, I just have to tell him the amount to pay.
HAHA.
And when I'm considering if I should get this particular stuff or not, he ALWAYS say, "You like just buy. Never mind the amount."
Awww right?
Not only so, he always snatch to carry all my stuff even though I always insist on carrying some to share the load.
THANK YOU FAT BB YAYA!


Would love to take this opportunity to thank every single one of you who made an effort to remember this day. Be it if you sent me an SMS or a little message on FB, THANK YOU!
I really appreciate this loads.


Of course, special thanks to all my sweet dear friends who surprised me at airport as early as 5am. HAHA.
BIG BIG THANK YOU!

Happy Travelling!

Ever since we left Arizona, my mood has been good good good. Somehow or rather, I left my depression mode behind me.

I was guessing, it must have been the lodging.
I fucking hated the place we stayed at Arizona, that's why.

For Las Vegas, we thought we booked a HOSTEL at USD15 per night for each pax. Little did we know that the place turned out to be a HOTEL where 4 of us can stay together!!! And the place was somehow hot but awesome!
Then for Los Angeles where I'm currently at, we booked for a TWENTY bed dorm and they automatically upgraded us to a 4-bed private room!!!!! Of course, same rate for the 20 bed dorm! Hee. And I love the places where we've been too... Hollywood and the pretty beaches!

Like WOW right?!
Lady luck's been with us!
Cool!

And later tonight, we'll be leaving for San Francisco. Not exactly excited yet, unless I get to see the condition of where we're staying. Pleaseeee, let the 6-bed dorm just contain only the 4 of us.

God bless us for a safe and fun trip!

Ciao.

Breakdown.

For the 101 times i've said this,
I feel miserable.
I wanna go home.

I admit defeat. I'm just weak.
I'm just not cut to travel for so long.
I feel so tired of missing everyone.
I feel like crying everyday and I feel so tired of crying over every slightest thing.
Because besides crying, I don't know of anything else I can do to help myself.

I think I may just develop depression.

I need to go home, badly.

心痛

在到Arizona的19个小时路途，我想了很多。几乎无所不想。

我发现，不知道从什么时候开始，我了解世上没有永恒。尤其是我最不愿意承认的- 恋情。
但我不想妥协。只想勇敢的爱，轰轰烈烈的爱。

生命的短暂让我想更珍惜现有的一切。家人、恋人、朋友是我的所有。

一路一直有着很心痛的感觉。
或许是太多牵挂的关系吧？
从不晓得原来我真的很爱家。
再次的体会，生命中根本不能没有你。
眼泪不停的流却也丝毫不减我的心痛。

我真的很想家，很想你。
亲爱的，陪着我一起倒数22天好吗？

Goodbye OKLAHOMA CITY.

I still clearly remember how excited we were when we landed in OKC despite the superrr tiring flights. The journey from airport and finally to hotel, we anticipated. The only thing that I'll miss in OKC is our hotel room. It's so cosy and filled with overflowing chlorofoam which lets us drown in our dreams. Of course, zilei, as she will not be joining us for the next three weeks.

I officially declare now that I SUPER MISS HOME, except for the weather. If I knew zilei would be going home initially, I would do so too.

Still, goodbye oklahoma city, and HELLO ARIZONA after 16 hours of bus ride.

Last week at OKC.

Hello peeps.
My apologies if you've been constantly coming back to check for my updates.
Cos, life here is so slack that I do not feel like updating at all.
Another thing is that, I haven't uploaded any other photos to share.
So sorry!

Anyway, this is gonna be my last week here at OKC and we will be heading to Arizona next Sunday! With that, we've been constantly making full use of time! We've been to strip clubs and even clubs like Coyote Ugly. Hgh high high! And yesterday was spastic because apparently I was high and did many nonsenstical stuffs. HEHE.

Memories!

And, we eating here is so expensive. One normal meal normally starts from US$7. This sucks, especially when you pay so much for unhealthy food. Fastfood is cheap though. But we try to avoid eating that as we watched a video in class and those are seriously CRAP food. So, fat fat fat!

Alright. I don't know what else more to say.

Good night! =)

HELLO FROM OKLAHOMA CITY!

Firstly, according to my time, now is a Friday night.
I'm 13 hours behind you guys.
We've been here for 7 days and this is the first time I'm updating my blog.
And here's an official BIG HELLO from Oklahoma City!

Life here isn't exactly exciting because we've to board the bus and head for school every 8.30am.
But everyday is definately full of laughter and juicy gossips thanks to my room mates.
Joanne's cunning ideas.
Glenn's occassional anger and funniness.
Lionel's whining and childishness.
Zilei's everything.
They are the reasons to why this trip is fun and meaningful.
It's just a pity that Zilei decided to not join us for the remaining 3 weeks.

I feel like admitting that I've been emoing.
Even this instant.
I can't help but miss my home.
Miss my LaLa.
Miss my friends.
Well. Basically everything but the hot sweaty weather.

Still, it's the fact that I've sooooooo many days left to endure and go through.
Even though..
I know I will feel sad when I've to leave USA.
This sucks.
It's an irony that I always have in me.

Well. On a happier note, we went through loads of funny stuff.
We've been very paranoid about "safety" ever since we reached here.

1. We went to a supermart with Lionel wearing berms. Many took note of his VERY attention grabbing "Mother Mary" tatoo and started talking to him. One of them whom he attracted is definately a psycho. He called himself Jesus and said he was in a gang bang and all shit. This really scared us big time.

2. There's this guy called JQ in my class whom everyone always mock at. These days, he doesn't seem to be his usual self. Hence we came up with the conclusion that one of these days he will kill those who bullied him and us. Finally, himself. He is really getting more and more freaky as days pass.

3. Because of JQ and weapons being legal here, we became ultimate scaredy cats. There was this day when we felt someone throw something on our window, our thoughts went really wild. Glenn pictured JQ standing outside our home, playing guitar (he likes Zilei btw) and finishes the song by taking a gun out, pointing at us. HAHA. It ended up being these 2 guys who weren't sure of our room number and they wanted to test water first.

4. Today, someone knocked on our door again. It took so long before Lionel and I stepped forward to check it out. And yes, it was them again. HAHA.

Just some funny stuff to commemorate my teeny exciting life in OKC though. The truth is that 3/4 of our time is occupied by chilling and gossiping. HAHA.

Anyway, Dallas SHOPPING TRIP is just tomorrow. Hope that things are really cheap.
*Anticipate*!


CIAOss.