i wanna know.

I need my space.
A space to pour out my thoughts.

I lovee you.
Unexplainable tonnes.

Yet,
No one knows;
How much I'm hurting, deeply.
How much I have teared.
How much I do not wanna remember and yet I can't.
How much I blamed myself for everything.
How much dilemma I'm facing.

All I want is- THE TRUTH.

I'm holding back everytime when I'm reminded of.
I want us back.
I want our lives back to normal.
Way back before what my eyes told me.
I know for the fact that- I may not be able to forgive and never forget.

I wanna save myself.

I wanna put a stop to the pain.

God, help me please.