Conflict.

I feel so cruel to myself when I'm on air.
I feel so sad upon hearing these non-stop love songs.
What 《悲伤止步》，
what 《Always My Baby》,
what 《Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You》 that I wanted to play on my wedding,
what 《其实你不懂我的心》 and
the 《喜欢你》 that you liked so much BB.

Every single word of the lyrics is stabbing hard into my heart.
Yet I've to sound so chirpy, so happy.

I'm bleeding inside.
I feel so much like crying.
But I know I can't.
I'm trying so hard to be professional.

But it's not even been 15 minutes. How to endure?